I decided that I need to practice cHesed with myself. It's a covenantal promise to act in the other's
best interest, and I haven't been doing that for myself. My impulses toward people pleasing, toward feeling good in the moment, toward never wanting to treat anyone unfairly - while not all negative desires - have led me to treat
myself in ways that were unfair and unhealthy.
I had a member who spoke this week about realizing that the choices she was making were not just unhealthy - but they were choices that were actively
hurting her.
And I think that's where I've been. I've been making choices that have been actively hurtful to myself.
That's stopping.
Self care is too easily set aside these days.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad to see you're still here. I haven't blogged in about five years, after blogging for several... I checked my reading list, it's pretty barren. I was also crushed to find that one of my favorite bloggers passed away four years ago... Anyway, for what it's worth, you made in impression on me for some goofy nonsense I posted some 7 years ago. Thanks again. Be good to you. :)