I decided that I need to practice cHesed with myself. It's a covenantal promise to act in the other's
best interest, and I haven't been doing that for myself. My impulses toward people pleasing, toward feeling good in the moment, toward never wanting to treat anyone unfairly - while not all negative desires - have led me to treat
myself in ways that were unfair and unhealthy.
I had a member who spoke this week about realizing that the choices she was making were not just unhealthy - but they were choices that were actively
hurting her.
And I think that's where I've been. I've been making choices that have been actively hurtful to myself.
That's stopping.
